As I lay on my bed, thoughts race past in my mind. So many thoughts, triggered by memories that evoke both joy and a lot of pain in my heart. Lots of questions pop up all devoid of answers...
There are many people who kill their conscience and I too have tried - to ignore mine but that all seems too impossible. Several questions arise from the thought of ignoring and murdering my conscience so as to move on with my life but at the end of the road I still realise that I cannot do without my conscience and certainly cannot kill it!
I have decided to stay with my conscience alive and bear whatever pain that comes with that. I bear this pain by by my choice to keep my conscience alive even in the event that my past life situation wont let my conscience free. So even as my past situations in life hold on to my conscience, till the day that it will be free, am grateful to all my friends that have stood by me for they have given me a reason to move on the way that i have.
I will admint that Life is an Interesting Journey and live with hope that one day my miracle will surely come. And that one day I will able to live every moment and my memories with happiness and that one day they may stop casing me PAIN. That one day, all those same memories will only bring a smile on my face crowned by tonns of laught er and that I will confortably say “those were the days of our lives.”